Well. Heres the deal people. I’ve got LOTS to update on. Camp Oasis, next surgery, my douche bag insurance and all that jazz. So instead of one giant post I’m going to make a few small ones however, I thought this was important. I am still really struggling with my weight. A lot. I’m having a hard time dealing with it. Accepting it. Fighting it. ….being me. However. Today, is the first time in a long time that I felt like I looked ok. I actually took my own picture. I have only allowed pictures on 2 occasions in the last year, once being a single picture at my niece’s birth and the other was Camp Oasis.

Even in those sets of pictures its a cruel reminder of my current status, my weight gain, and my over all constant reminder of my disease. Even if I am feeling good about myself I see a picture and it all goes away instantly.

Ok I lied. There was a third. I applied for my CPL (concealed pistol license) and for that they needed a picture. I had that picture taken around april. I just got the CPL in the mail…and wow. No wonder I didn’t allow pictures. Now mind you, I’m no where near my pre sickness weight, but I have lost almost 20 lbs from my heaviest.

So…here I am. Today.

Advertisements